Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Reflection -- Reflecting on where I was this time last year and where I'm today... Looking at this woman in the mirror I see a more mature reflection. One who understands humility, forgiveness and most importantly God's grace and mercy. Which allows me to see all things are possible with God and when the storms of life arrive I'm hit with the realization that most of the issues/heartache etc... are centered around my inability to release control and wanting the world to be according to "Angie" As I evolve into a more mature Christian I have realized and embrace the true understanding of "surrender" I'm not in control, that is God's role. Surrendering has been and continues to be a slow hard and often painful process one of leaving self of out the situation and not being controlled by my flesh or the world. It has truly been a transformation of my mind, body and soul; to walk, think and be Christ-like... rewarding me a peace that (as grandma used to say) passes all understanding. When the storms hit; remember you are being tested, even when you think no one is watching: what master will you serve... what direction will you take, who will you honor, (EXHALE and PRAY) then call upon the Holy Spirit within you. Look at that man or woman in the mirror and know that you can't hide from God. Be true to the path God is directing.
Some might wonder what is this “High Road” Some might question, all they have been told Some might sit and ponder on its true meaning Some might even say it is too demeaning. Just remember that being a child of our Father Has us all seeking to go farther Farther in our zest to impress our heavenly Creator As we press towards our eternal life So we must cut down on all the strife. Never allow the drama to take its big bite Hold on to Gods hand with your entire might Love thee enemy, move towards forgiveness Understanding the “High Road” principles is very simple business It is the realization that treating others better than you expect to be treated is the rule of the day. A game in which all His children are expected to play Knowing this will make you very humble I just hope you know you might tumble and stumble As you seek to move towards that “High Road” remember there is always tomorrow…
Time has not been my friend or surrounded me with comfort or relief For those who have said that time would be my comrade, my buddy, my pal I feel you have lied or some how taken your last bow I weep with a loss that consumes my heart and my thoughts Time has me continually asking the question of “How” Time has me looking for her, yearling for her, missing her Time has my heart forgetting to beat because of the loss of her I pray that Time will give me peace with every year it brings Offering remembrance and joy as the New Year horns ring A place in my heart where Time will allow loving thoughts to abide and Time will crease to be the place where my pain and hurt reside
Sunday, May 20, 2012
The pain I embrace today… I don’t recall asking or praying for it...yet I am consumed by it. I pray for Gods’ strength and His mercy...and yet the tears continue to spill The sadness seems to drain my will That for a moment I crease to know what is real But when I am very still God whispers gently and loving HE is here…have courage… my child…never fear because I am near…
As I sit amongst the other mother less children... my heart weeps The wet grasses tell the stories of our tears…my heart weeps Each face reflecting the battle between joy and grief…my heart weeps As we gather around our love ones final resting place, trying to recall their face and gasp the lasting remnants of their love…my heart weeps Mourning yesterdays and praying for strength to see us thru our tomorrows…my heart weeps Finally as we depart tear by tear…step by step…one by one…we say a tearful goodbye until next Mother’s day… and my heart weeps